lmao!

tell me why i be gettin readii to post mah blogs then something alwaysz comesz up and wow your gonna laugh instead of posting it like a normal person i save it as a draft! no wonder none of mah blogsz show up im like am i doin something wrong? durr loser! ugh who does that...well apparently me butt minus me... geesh i really think imma fail the INST course wow so glad i chose to take the class and jump str8 to the exam... a call worth all the money from the state lol not funny anymore cuz i wont be gettn as much grantsz and scholarshipsz anymore huyy...life is soo hard oh wellsz so mah SL thiingy is tomorro...well technically todaii which i shoule be sleepn butt funny thing is im not... ionooo is this wat you call insane/insomnia lol cuz i am i think i am crayzee... guess that makesz up cuz you kno... imma how you sayy... BEAUTIFUL gurl so gyea cant have everything rite... guess i got looksz and not smartsz lotta pplsz into brainsz now and not looksz and itsz hard cuz im tryna look smart and be smart butt when i open mah mouth i alwaysz say something crayzee for some reason and ppl look at me like im crayzee... well there ya go ppl... now ya kno i am crayzee ahhahaha wow im so kewlsz...itsz funny how i strive to feel prettii as a gurl ... butt like im still a tomboii at heart... like i cant shake the feeling of peepn well not peepn wow pervert lmao nah like checcn out gurlsz and oh mah gosh i like shoppn for guysz clothesz more than gurlsz clothesz minus panties lmao i am a collector hahaha i collect pantiesz wow thatsz mah deepest darkest secret now you all kno lmao omgeesh i jus realized itsz halloween HAPPY HALLOWEEN pplsz!! nah im not drunk im sober jus exhausted butt cant sleep ionoo guess im worried bout mah gradesz and where imma go wit mah life... pplsz alwaysz think about the present butt i like try to map out mah life not like oh imma get married here and kidsz then nah like mah college career i map it out take these coursesz now and those coursesz l8r and if all goes well then imma graduate jus in time as i claim l8 butt heyy not by much... like im so busy right now wit everything that is goin on in mah life i have no time to study like this whole time i am witing this for nada i could be reading the next article and BAM next thiing ya kno im knocced out and i still get nada done wow i have such a blank blank life lol lost of wordsz dag mah bacc itchesz lol ouch scratched it too hard lmao so like yesterday the 30th was mah dad 52nd birthday so mah younger sis tried to make him feel better by sayn dad todaii you can be 25 okaii and he said wat im not 52 im onloii 27 lmao! i was like wow dad then mom gonna get thrown in jail lmao wow mom'sz onlii like 37 imagine... itsz funny how they found each other lmao everytime they talk about their love story we alwaysz laugh like the whole family... when we have a family dinner well used to... all of us everyone in the house during dinner time b/c that is the onlii time we actually are altogether in one place... like we would stop wat we are doing and jus go eat and chat away... and the gurlsz would go help mother cook cuz we are gurlsz ya kno we needa learn to cook while we still young ya kno gurlsz can be layzee and cant be dirty and gotta kno how to cook...anywaysz gyea w/e we are doin: playin game, readin, homework or hangn outside wit friendsz when mother come home from work we give her half an hour to shower and clean up then all the gurlsz would like walk in one by one wash up and liek try to negotiate with mother on wat we wanna eat then she end up like nope sorry hunsz i bought this lol then we be like itsz okaii we can learn to make that and then your birthday come we gonna make that for you too eat okaii then she be like oh okaii then in that case letsz see wat we can do lmao i love mah mother so much! when i think of gewd timesz like these like i think of grandpa... i miss grandpaa mucho tooo ugh! grandpa went away too earlii... he didnt get to see us grow up and mature into these fine young laydeesz not to mention beautiful we have become... watsz more messed up is that im the onlii one that remembersz him minus the fact that i was his favorite also lol wanna include im gramma'sz favorite too plus the one rite after me butt she doesnt really count lol butt gyea grandpa and i had some gewd timesz some were scary butt love him regardless... idc who mah real grandpa is this is the one that looked after me this is the one i like mah name to be known as... like i like to tell people that mah name derived from grandpa even tho is sorta has a bad like meaning behind it i guess thatsz why i use ras more... i alwaysz introduce mahself as ross-knee... cuz thatsz hisz name Ross... ya kno... he soo cute... hey i jus realize grandpa and gramma age is almost the same as mom and dad... grandpa probable be like in his eightiesz and gramma onlii in her earlii sixtiesz wow like mother like daughter i guess thatsz why i was alwaysz attracted to older pplsz lol except in some cases no well no i dont ever see mahself dating anyone younger that me even by a month... i think it is crayzee... ionoo i cant deal like the furthest i gone wit someone well a guy younger than me was dance hehe thatsz a record... considerin how im so called high maintenance i dont think im that high maintenance...oh you kno wat i think imma call outta work tomorroo... i wont have the energy... nah they gonna think im horsing around cuz the holiday nvm imma jus have to succ it up and hope sunday i can sleep earlii well earlii to me is like one two... if i could sleep at twelve thatd be awesome butt seldom i can sleep before then... like there are daysz i be falling asleep at five then wake up at eight there was one time thisz semester i finally fell asleep at like seven and guess wat time i woke up...ya gott it eight wow... mah life is madd hectic rite now i reallyy cant fit in time to sleep butt everything im doin i think is worthwhile... except work... butt it comesz in handy sometimesz ugh hate work wit a passion ugh! like service learnin im scared to go because ionoo wat to expect butt once im there like omgeesh itsz two alreadii wow iighttsz peace lmao then i go home eat and guess wat... yuppsz work til like ten butt i dont get bacc to mah room til like twelve and freshn up and squeeze in some homework and next thing ya kno itsz like three or four and i try and try to sleep then when i finally sleep mah internal alarm wakesz me and say hunn... work callsz so i dont leave to work till eleven thirty butt i wouldbe readiii to go by like ten why dont i jus take that extra hour to sleep you wonder i cant i was raised not to sacrafice beauty for somethin as simple as laccc of sleep... wat i jus come to realize is that i need sleep in order to have energy to smile to look beautiful ya kno like recently like i swear i lost madd weight during the summer so i tried to gain it all bacc and itsz been a month i made gewd progress til now... losing it bacc again ugh! i aint doin anythin like im not exercising anymore or anythin like that i used to cuz i was tryna work mah bicepsz and tricepsz butt i realized that for strong armsz am i reallii willing to have callused handsz so i came to the conclusion that i rather have uncallused handsz than strong armsz... i mean cmon i went twenty yearsz w/o doin a single push up not to mention chin up why do i needa do it now rite... butt still the point i like struggle to fit into mah jeansz now and gosh that succsz to look at mahself and see this bony thing butt when i was bigger i used to be like dag im fat like esp mah love handlesz butt i look nicer fat than skinny like madd scrawny mah older sister would call me... like six outta seven of us are like naturally big and mah younger sister the one rite after me she is like the odd ball... she not that soft spoken butt compared to the six of us she is, she used to be the onlii one that doesnt have a booty not im included in that lmao she like prefer silver jewelry over gold so when like mom is tryna by jewelry she would have to go outta her way and get silver for her and hope that she fitsz it butt wit the gold if the person she bought it for doesnt fit it then mom gives it to someone that does fit it or she keepsz for herself... butt gyea there was one instant where we all had tmobile and she had at the time cingular and i like closed mah checcn wit citizen bank to have bank of america wit the family butt she kept citizen so gyea i guess she used to bein the oddball... her an i used to fight all the time cuz we both are how you say snakesz well she the snake on the ground and i am the air snake/ snake in the air (dragon) so we could never get along and now we like best friendsz we alwaysz help each other out and i sorta spoil her cuz im her older sister i feel like as her older sister i needa put her needsz in front of mine so i would say for instance she lives in weber i live in new hall i would walk her to weber then walk bacc to new hall at like one in the morn... itsz jus the smallest thiingsz that an older siblin do for the younger sibling that mattersz most... like we were alwaysz tight as a family butt when i be like oh i love you lil bro everyone in the house looksz at me like i jus swore so we more like show it thru our actionsz like as a kid we were raised like mom and dad alwaysz givin... constantly puttin other pplsz needsz in front of their own... like i remember one time at the airport in ny from cambodia we had to wait madd long and mother got cold so she went to buy a shirt...she sat bacc down got comfortable and everything and she fell asleep and i didnt haave a jaccet you see we came from cambodia and i thought you kno march would be kinda hott in america hot enough not to needa jacct so i decided to wear jus a tee shirt so at the airport i got cold lol and mother musta awoke and saw me all like wrapped in mah tee so she took hersz off and covered me wit it like it was big enough to be a blanket lol and when we were younger monksz alwaysz called dad to help out everywhere wit decor, performancesz, emcee, broken car taking them to shop w/e it was he was alwaysz there in a spilt second minus the fact that we used to live rite across the street from the temple butt gyea he was constantly giving up time wit his family to be of assistance to his community butt itsz not like he left his kidsz when we were not in school he would bring us along too and we would have nada to do so we would liek start walking around and cleanin up pickin up trash and wat not so our family was loved... when dad volunteered to teach the family to play the drumsz the monksz got together and put their moneysz together and ordered the drum set they paid for the drumsz the shipment the packagin and it came str8 from cambodia or thai one of them and they even paid for the uniform and the masks and true to his wordsz dad taught everyone of us to play it and durin ceremoniesz both big and small we would play and we became famous w/o realizin it lol liek we would squeeze by the crowd and they be like oh the drummersz are here the show bout to start lol recently wit mah hectic life i couldnt play wit them durin our ancestors ceremony butt when i squeezed by a crowd to give donationsz i was stoppped and asked if i was playn and im like nah i gotta work this year sadly... butt it was all gewd they managed w/o me... butt gyea itsz two... imma try to sleep ugh!so gyea nite... if you get to then end of this leave your name lol i wanna kno who actually didn get bored wit mah random thoughtsz and stopped followin after the second sentence lol... butt gyea if you did get this far all i can give you is a pat on the bacc lol nada else to offer butt thanksz for takn time outta your life to listen to me rant about mine... see thats the thiing wit charity and change... i think you donatin time outta your life to jus listen to me mattersz more than tellin me i needa learn to be more organized wit mah thoughtsz or i have too much goin on rite now i should drop a few thiingsz... these are thiingsz i wanna do thatsz why i decided to do them in the first place rite... change would be useless rite now butt the charity is very much appreciated b/c i feel like i talk alot butt noone is listening....

Talking Points #5

Title:
“In The Service Of What? The Politics of Service Learning”
Author:
Joesph Kahne and Joel Westheimer
Author’s Argument:
Kahne and Westheimer argues that
Quote#1:
"By finding and engaging in community service activities,... students would interact with those less fortunate than themselves and would experience the excitement and joy of learning while using the community as a classroom"
I find this quote not completely true. While we do get to work with those less fortunate and use the community as a classroom, service learning is more than that. Service learning provides us with an opportunity to search deep within ourselves and find our true values and beliefs: what we really enjoy and what we think we enjoy. In my own experience with service learning, I don't think the kids are less fortunate than I. We all have one thing in common and that is bilingualism. I personally think that no matter the class, the status, the sex anyone that speaks more that one language is awesome. Anyways back to the point, I not only help these kids, they help me improve my knowledge of working with students, how to explain something in an easy to understand way, what tone to use on which students and last but not least how to react in a given circumstance. Also, I don't think I get excited over learning alone, I think I get more excited just being in an environment where I have the power to make a difference.
Quote#2
"Educators who emphasize change would clearly also value the educational benefits of this approach. To tap into full power of service activities, however... This process can transform students' understandings of both disciplinary knowledge and the particular social issues with which they are engaged."
This sort of for some reason reminds me of the McCain and Obama project. Of course everyone wants change, but there are certain methods that needs to be approached in a certain manner, not by just saying we need change and in the end because of ignorance, everything becomes worse. I actually agree with this quote tho, for the first time ever I agree with a quote...anyways the point, service learning does transform students in an unexplainable way.
Quote#3






Comments:

Who am I kidding? I do not know what is going on... I read and reread and reread and I still cannot comprehend. Hopefully all this confusion can be clarified in class. Maybe because my readings kept getting interrupted by my customers... but still. Like the whole meaning of the article is hidden behind all these complicated words that I don't know how to understand... huyy

SL Project Day3

Friday I actually went during teacher's lunch period. The front doors were closed but not locked. I walked in and knew where I was heading without getting lost. I saw when I walked in a Halloween dance poster and i thought it was awesome. A nice social event for the kids. Although I am sick and afraid I might contaminate the the young kids, I could not see myself calling in and saying I could not make it. Th students expected me and I did not want to put them down because of a little headache and sinus pressure... I was able to drive so I was good. I did not want to disappoint the kids nor the teachers. It was kind of funny how I was forcing myself to get out of bed, but as soon as I thought about the kids, I practically jumped out of bed. Not like the weekends... I always find it hard to get out of bed. Work is not enough to motivate me to get out of bed =P. I am so proud of myself! I focused on about two kids that Ms. Caron pointed out before the class started and the one that actually tried really understood! I kept remminding him not to forget to retake the test. The other one kept calling me "miss" and I am like Whoa... it felt kind of weird for someone two-three years younger than I am to call me miss. This same boy, as I was leaving has asked me to sign him out. He is so funny. I think he has potential to get so far, but because of his "I dont't care" attitude, he gets zeroes and... he does not care... it upsets me to see such potential with such attitude. Makes me want to find something I can say or do to motivate him to try harder, but I know there is not much I can do. At least he comes to school I guess. That is a good start. Although he does not try as hard, for some strange reason when I look at him I feel like he is going to walk when it comes time... with honors or not...I just feel it is going to happen. And I am going to do everything in my power to make sure no one tells him otherwise. Today kids get influenced by the put downs and I want to make sure all the students are kept motivated and encouraged to go further with their lives and reach their full potential.

Talking Points #4

Title:
“Unlearning the myths that binds us”
Author:
Christensen and Karp
Author’s Argument:
In this article, I think Christensen is arguing that the cartoons that kids grow- up with and learn to love is give false information and misleading to the young minds. Christen also believe that this type of influence is bad for the children and the start of expectations that are not met.

Quote#1
-“The "secret education," as Chilean writer Ariel Dorfman dubs it, delivered by children's books and movies, instructs young people to accept the world as it is portrayed in these social blueprints.”
This quote is saying that children are learning about life through “children’s books and movies”, however I think otherwise. Just like the movie It’s Elementary”, young minds do not think much of situations like adults think they do. Children jus watch on and follow the story line. If no one mentions it, then the kids would not have noticed that all the princesses happen to be white and all the poor people happens to be black. So I definitely disagree with this comment.

Quote#2
-“Happiness means getting a man, and transformation from wretched conditions can be achieved through consumption -in their case, through new clothes and a new hairstyle.”
Again, I feel like sometimes people try so hard to look beyond what is really there and just start to assume things. Yes, kids try to look for the happily ever after, but after a certain age,, they grow out of that and realizes that a cartoon is not realistic. And by Christensen saying that “happily ever after” does not exist, that is sort of depressing because she sort of just shut down all hopes for kids living the princess life. I just have to say that there is such a thing as “happily ever after” and just because she has not found it yet does not mean she should tell other people that it does not exist.

Quote#3
-“But more importantly, students saw themselves as actors in the world. They were fueled by the opportunity to convince some parents of the long-lasting effects cartoons impose on 'their children, or to enlighten their peers about the roots of some of their insecurities. Instead of leaving students full of bile, standing around with their hands on their hips, shaking their heads about how bad the world is, I provided them the opportunity to make a difference.”
She keeps going! Does she really think she is giving them an “opportunity to make a difference” by pointing out that in children’s most favorite shows, there is racism and prejudice? What I think she is doing as an adolescent is beyond, excuse my language, stupid! All she is doing is making the children aware of it all. And after that, they will start to look for all the bias in society. They will start the new generation of hate towards white people because she said that cartoons favor white people so of course these children are going to look at white people and say, “You stole all my opportunity in life!”
Comments:
I think what she is trying to prove is wrong. I think she did the opposite of her intentions. If she just left it as is then these kids would have still modeled after the cartoons until they realize on their own time that turtles that speak and fight are not realistic. They will see that being bitten by a spider will not turn him or her into Spiderman or Spiderwoman… I think she should just get a life. Take me for example, I did not know about racism until I came to RIC. True, I learned about slavery and what not, but that did not hit me as racism. I understood it was whites hating black people for some reason I still do not understand, but I did not see society today like that. Then when I came to RIC, professors and some students started to mention that racism is happening to them. Why do I not see it? Maybe just maybe these students are looking beyond what the professor is trying to say and due to bias, just make the professor look bad by saying he or she was being racist.

SL Project day2

I went kind of early. I arrived during Ms. Caron's free period and felt out of place just because she like did not have anything for me to do or like we were sort of talking, but not really conversing. However, I did get another classroom. I saw the room tag and was immediately interested and then Ms. Caron mentioned it then I was like sounds interesting so during her lunch, I went to talk to him and he immediately said that I could and that if ever I needed anything to not be afraid to ask. He gave me the class criteria and a rubric and a copy of the quiz he was giving his class. This second class is an Algebra I class. In this class, I felt more useful. I was able to help students out when they had questions whereas the geometry class rarely was I able to help. The geometry students are older and wiser I guess so there were very few students that needed help. In Mr. Elias class, there were several students that were pointed out as learners at a slow rate and these kids were not afraid to ask questions. My co-workers asked me why recently I have been very cheery and I just answered, "I found my motivation again!" I had lost it for a while so I was lost. It was much easier this time because I did not have to fly overseas to find the motivation I had first found when I was in Cambodia. I walked into the classrooms and looked at the students faces and I was like, “Wow! I did not make the wrong decision in choosing a career.” I know here will be bad days, but I am sure there are more good days than bad. As Mr. Elias (Algebra I teacher) was pointing out the students that needed help most, I looked at their faces and I just felt this feeling that cannot be described in words. Except for the few kids that kept whistling and making hand gestures telling me to call them and the constant looking at my body parts, I just love the school environment. School is where I belong. I always had a passion for school and these kids reminded me why I wanted to be a teacher in the first place. The vice principal that set me up in Ms. Caron’s class was busy meeting a parent so I did not see him. I did stop in to say hi and bye to the secretary ladies. I cannot wait to go back next week! I was there for two periods, which is a little less than two hours, but those two hours might have been the best two hours I spent in school this semester! It was funny how both classes had a quiz that day. In Ms. Caron’s class, the kids forgot that I was there like a second set of eyes and ears for Ms. Caron, they were whispering questions and answers, and I went to the table and cleared my throat and then the realized that I had some authority. Mr. Elias students were being helped by three adult figures. There was the teacher, a resource teacher and last but not least me… So we were walking and one girl raised her hand and Mr. Elias sort of waited for me to go to her and so I did and she asked me for the answer and I am looked at her and her answer to a prior question and I am like, “Hun, pay attention to the signs.” Then she put a negative sign in front of her wrong answer. It was so funny how she did not even notice her mistake. I did not blame her though because she was one of the students that were pointed out. So I asked her what a positive plus a negative comes out to. I told her to write it out which number, positive or negative is bigger. Then she finally got it. At that point, I did not realize he had made up different quizzes so when I went to help out another student I looked again I was like, “Oh snap! I just gave the girl the wrong answer!” So I went back to apologize and she just laughed and said that she does not mind. I felt so bad!

School Context paper

Rasni Hul
Dr. Lesley Bogad
FNED 346.05
October 05, 2008
Learning in a Diverse Community
The school that I am volunteering at is Hanley Vocational. However, the school is temporarily located in West Broadway Elementary while the Hanley building is still under construction. Upon arrival, the building door was open and I already knew where the main office was located so I walked right in and I did not see a secretary because she was busy making copies. Outside the main office about shoulder level, I noticed there was a few no smoking sign in Spanish. On the bulletin board adjacent to the office, right across the main doors is a “Welcome” sign and a space for students that made the honor roll. There are also motivational signs inspiring students to succeed and continue to higher education.
While interviewing the vice principal, we came to the conclusion that a majority of the population are Hispanic and Caucasian are the minority. There are approximately three hundred students and sixty percent are Hispanic, ten are Asian, twenty-five are black or African American or related (Haitian, Liberian, Nigeria, etc), and five percent are White. With the large Spanish population, however, there were little Spanish signs posted on the walls. There are notices that are sent home in other languages. “Important notices” such as testing dates, no school days and so on and so forth are sent home in Spanish if necessary and also Cambodian upon request. Although the diversity is great, the school only manages to be able to translate two languages.
The faculty consists of one black, and at least five are Hispanic and the rest are Caucasian. With only twenty staff and three hundred students, the school seems very handled and under control.
There are a handful of students that does not respect their teachers, but respect their principals so few problems are created. There are three levels of ESL classes: beginner, which is three hours a day, Intermediate that decreases to two hours a day, and lastly the advanced that, is only an hour a day. However, with the renovations, there are currently no ESL programs available and teachers speak strictly English. If interpreters are needed to speak with parents, the principal is Hispanic so he translates and the Cambodian teacher’s aide gets called in from Central. During my time there, I did not notice the students speaking any other language besides the English language, which surprised me. All the students speaks, writes, reads and understands the English language well.
The vice principal did mention segregation in the lunchroom. All the kids sat with other kids that were the same ethnicity. A student standing close by overheard and disagreed with the vice principal.
When Hanley gets finished next year, it will finally separate from Central and become it’s own school. About twelve hundred students are expected to occupy the school. New staff are going to be a must and interpreters as well.

Service Learning Project day1

Omgeesh! I was there it was so awesome! Although I did keep getting hit on, whistled at, and winked at which startled and scared me a bit, but other than that omgeesh I can't wait to go bacc hopefully Wednesday... The kids were doing geometry bisecting angles and segments and what nots. It was so funny because there was one incident when a kid asked me how to bisect an angle and I'm like, "Ummm... gimme a sec." So, I went to checc out how to do it then as I left to find an answer to his question the teacher walked by and he asked her who I was and she told him that I am a college student and he gave a look like really then how come I don't know how to bisect an angle lmao! The teacher had warned me about one kid how he always acts up, but that whole time I was there he was quiet doing his work not lifting his head up unless he had a question... There was a girl that was the typical teenager. She had her phone out and I guess she was fidgeting with it so the teacher got upset and asked her to put it away so the girl got upset and rebelled by folding her arms and repeatedly rolling her eyes until the teacher finally asked me to escort her to the Principal's office. I met both the vice principal and the principal. The school I went to though was still under construction so a lot was going on at once, but the vice principal was able to tell me estimates of the diversity in the school between the faculty and staff and students. Got to say though... I miss the high school environment where everyone knows everyone and especially the student/teacher/principal relationship/connection... when students get upset they just go to their Principal's office and rant and the principal actually listens to them and act like a psychologist... and since teachers are with their students for like six seven months at a time, a bond gets created and a security/trusting feeling develops and sometimes a student could really use that secure/trust feeling, especially when the root of their problems are at home...wow LOOOOVVVEEEE IIIITTTTT!!!!