lmao!

tell me why i be gettin readii to post mah blogs then something alwaysz comesz up and wow your gonna laugh instead of posting it like a normal person i save it as a draft! no wonder none of mah blogsz show up im like am i doin something wrong? durr loser! ugh who does that...well apparently me butt minus me... geesh i really think imma fail the INST course wow so glad i chose to take the class and jump str8 to the exam... a call worth all the money from the state lol not funny anymore cuz i wont be gettn as much grantsz and scholarshipsz anymore huyy...life is soo hard oh wellsz so mah SL thiingy is tomorro...well technically todaii which i shoule be sleepn butt funny thing is im not... ionooo is this wat you call insane/insomnia lol cuz i am i think i am crayzee... guess that makesz up cuz you kno... imma how you sayy... BEAUTIFUL gurl so gyea cant have everything rite... guess i got looksz and not smartsz lotta pplsz into brainsz now and not looksz and itsz hard cuz im tryna look smart and be smart butt when i open mah mouth i alwaysz say something crayzee for some reason and ppl look at me like im crayzee... well there ya go ppl... now ya kno i am crayzee ahhahaha wow im so kewlsz...itsz funny how i strive to feel prettii as a gurl ... butt like im still a tomboii at heart... like i cant shake the feeling of peepn well not peepn wow pervert lmao nah like checcn out gurlsz and oh mah gosh i like shoppn for guysz clothesz more than gurlsz clothesz minus panties lmao i am a collector hahaha i collect pantiesz wow thatsz mah deepest darkest secret now you all kno lmao omgeesh i jus realized itsz halloween HAPPY HALLOWEEN pplsz!! nah im not drunk im sober jus exhausted butt cant sleep ionoo guess im worried bout mah gradesz and where imma go wit mah life... pplsz alwaysz think about the present butt i like try to map out mah life not like oh imma get married here and kidsz then nah like mah college career i map it out take these coursesz now and those coursesz l8r and if all goes well then imma graduate jus in time as i claim l8 butt heyy not by much... like im so busy right now wit everything that is goin on in mah life i have no time to study like this whole time i am witing this for nada i could be reading the next article and BAM next thiing ya kno im knocced out and i still get nada done wow i have such a blank blank life lol lost of wordsz dag mah bacc itchesz lol ouch scratched it too hard lmao so like yesterday the 30th was mah dad 52nd birthday so mah younger sis tried to make him feel better by sayn dad todaii you can be 25 okaii and he said wat im not 52 im onloii 27 lmao! i was like wow dad then mom gonna get thrown in jail lmao wow mom'sz onlii like 37 imagine... itsz funny how they found each other lmao everytime they talk about their love story we alwaysz laugh like the whole family... when we have a family dinner well used to... all of us everyone in the house during dinner time b/c that is the onlii time we actually are altogether in one place... like we would stop wat we are doing and jus go eat and chat away... and the gurlsz would go help mother cook cuz we are gurlsz ya kno we needa learn to cook while we still young ya kno gurlsz can be layzee and cant be dirty and gotta kno how to cook...anywaysz gyea w/e we are doin: playin game, readin, homework or hangn outside wit friendsz when mother come home from work we give her half an hour to shower and clean up then all the gurlsz would like walk in one by one wash up and liek try to negotiate with mother on wat we wanna eat then she end up like nope sorry hunsz i bought this lol then we be like itsz okaii we can learn to make that and then your birthday come we gonna make that for you too eat okaii then she be like oh okaii then in that case letsz see wat we can do lmao i love mah mother so much! when i think of gewd timesz like these like i think of grandpa... i miss grandpaa mucho tooo ugh! grandpa went away too earlii... he didnt get to see us grow up and mature into these fine young laydeesz not to mention beautiful we have become... watsz more messed up is that im the onlii one that remembersz him minus the fact that i was his favorite also lol wanna include im gramma'sz favorite too plus the one rite after me butt she doesnt really count lol butt gyea grandpa and i had some gewd timesz some were scary butt love him regardless... idc who mah real grandpa is this is the one that looked after me this is the one i like mah name to be known as... like i like to tell people that mah name derived from grandpa even tho is sorta has a bad like meaning behind it i guess thatsz why i use ras more... i alwaysz introduce mahself as ross-knee... cuz thatsz hisz name Ross... ya kno... he soo cute... hey i jus realize grandpa and gramma age is almost the same as mom and dad... grandpa probable be like in his eightiesz and gramma onlii in her earlii sixtiesz wow like mother like daughter i guess thatsz why i was alwaysz attracted to older pplsz lol except in some cases no well no i dont ever see mahself dating anyone younger that me even by a month... i think it is crayzee... ionoo i cant deal like the furthest i gone wit someone well a guy younger than me was dance hehe thatsz a record... considerin how im so called high maintenance i dont think im that high maintenance...oh you kno wat i think imma call outta work tomorroo... i wont have the energy... nah they gonna think im horsing around cuz the holiday nvm imma jus have to succ it up and hope sunday i can sleep earlii well earlii to me is like one two... if i could sleep at twelve thatd be awesome butt seldom i can sleep before then... like there are daysz i be falling asleep at five then wake up at eight there was one time thisz semester i finally fell asleep at like seven and guess wat time i woke up...ya gott it eight wow... mah life is madd hectic rite now i reallyy cant fit in time to sleep butt everything im doin i think is worthwhile... except work... butt it comesz in handy sometimesz ugh hate work wit a passion ugh! like service learnin im scared to go because ionoo wat to expect butt once im there like omgeesh itsz two alreadii wow iighttsz peace lmao then i go home eat and guess wat... yuppsz work til like ten butt i dont get bacc to mah room til like twelve and freshn up and squeeze in some homework and next thing ya kno itsz like three or four and i try and try to sleep then when i finally sleep mah internal alarm wakesz me and say hunn... work callsz so i dont leave to work till eleven thirty butt i wouldbe readiii to go by like ten why dont i jus take that extra hour to sleep you wonder i cant i was raised not to sacrafice beauty for somethin as simple as laccc of sleep... wat i jus come to realize is that i need sleep in order to have energy to smile to look beautiful ya kno like recently like i swear i lost madd weight during the summer so i tried to gain it all bacc and itsz been a month i made gewd progress til now... losing it bacc again ugh! i aint doin anythin like im not exercising anymore or anythin like that i used to cuz i was tryna work mah bicepsz and tricepsz butt i realized that for strong armsz am i reallii willing to have callused handsz so i came to the conclusion that i rather have uncallused handsz than strong armsz... i mean cmon i went twenty yearsz w/o doin a single push up not to mention chin up why do i needa do it now rite... butt still the point i like struggle to fit into mah jeansz now and gosh that succsz to look at mahself and see this bony thing butt when i was bigger i used to be like dag im fat like esp mah love handlesz butt i look nicer fat than skinny like madd scrawny mah older sister would call me... like six outta seven of us are like naturally big and mah younger sister the one rite after me she is like the odd ball... she not that soft spoken butt compared to the six of us she is, she used to be the onlii one that doesnt have a booty not im included in that lmao she like prefer silver jewelry over gold so when like mom is tryna by jewelry she would have to go outta her way and get silver for her and hope that she fitsz it butt wit the gold if the person she bought it for doesnt fit it then mom gives it to someone that does fit it or she keepsz for herself... butt gyea there was one instant where we all had tmobile and she had at the time cingular and i like closed mah checcn wit citizen bank to have bank of america wit the family butt she kept citizen so gyea i guess she used to bein the oddball... her an i used to fight all the time cuz we both are how you say snakesz well she the snake on the ground and i am the air snake/ snake in the air (dragon) so we could never get along and now we like best friendsz we alwaysz help each other out and i sorta spoil her cuz im her older sister i feel like as her older sister i needa put her needsz in front of mine so i would say for instance she lives in weber i live in new hall i would walk her to weber then walk bacc to new hall at like one in the morn... itsz jus the smallest thiingsz that an older siblin do for the younger sibling that mattersz most... like we were alwaysz tight as a family butt when i be like oh i love you lil bro everyone in the house looksz at me like i jus swore so we more like show it thru our actionsz like as a kid we were raised like mom and dad alwaysz givin... constantly puttin other pplsz needsz in front of their own... like i remember one time at the airport in ny from cambodia we had to wait madd long and mother got cold so she went to buy a shirt...she sat bacc down got comfortable and everything and she fell asleep and i didnt haave a jaccet you see we came from cambodia and i thought you kno march would be kinda hott in america hot enough not to needa jacct so i decided to wear jus a tee shirt so at the airport i got cold lol and mother musta awoke and saw me all like wrapped in mah tee so she took hersz off and covered me wit it like it was big enough to be a blanket lol and when we were younger monksz alwaysz called dad to help out everywhere wit decor, performancesz, emcee, broken car taking them to shop w/e it was he was alwaysz there in a spilt second minus the fact that we used to live rite across the street from the temple butt gyea he was constantly giving up time wit his family to be of assistance to his community butt itsz not like he left his kidsz when we were not in school he would bring us along too and we would have nada to do so we would liek start walking around and cleanin up pickin up trash and wat not so our family was loved... when dad volunteered to teach the family to play the drumsz the monksz got together and put their moneysz together and ordered the drum set they paid for the drumsz the shipment the packagin and it came str8 from cambodia or thai one of them and they even paid for the uniform and the masks and true to his wordsz dad taught everyone of us to play it and durin ceremoniesz both big and small we would play and we became famous w/o realizin it lol liek we would squeeze by the crowd and they be like oh the drummersz are here the show bout to start lol recently wit mah hectic life i couldnt play wit them durin our ancestors ceremony butt when i squeezed by a crowd to give donationsz i was stoppped and asked if i was playn and im like nah i gotta work this year sadly... butt it was all gewd they managed w/o me... butt gyea itsz two... imma try to sleep ugh!so gyea nite... if you get to then end of this leave your name lol i wanna kno who actually didn get bored wit mah random thoughtsz and stopped followin after the second sentence lol... butt gyea if you did get this far all i can give you is a pat on the bacc lol nada else to offer butt thanksz for takn time outta your life to listen to me rant about mine... see thats the thiing wit charity and change... i think you donatin time outta your life to jus listen to me mattersz more than tellin me i needa learn to be more organized wit mah thoughtsz or i have too much goin on rite now i should drop a few thiingsz... these are thiingsz i wanna do thatsz why i decided to do them in the first place rite... change would be useless rite now butt the charity is very much appreciated b/c i feel like i talk alot butt noone is listening....